"This is it! You might as well get used to seeing me fat because I don't think I will ever be able to get back to my pre pregnancy weight." This words spoken to the husband this morning out of frustration. I am overweight and it shows. I am disappointed with myself for letting myself go like this. Shame on me. Instead of the fit person I have always envisioned of myself, I let myself go and the result is not good. I am not comfortable with my clothes anymore. I used to feel sexy when I wear my nice tops but that is not the case as of late. I work hard to hide the flab instead of showing off my figure. Who am I kidding? There is no nice figure to show off for. Unless I will work hard on getting back in shape. But the problem is I don't have discipline and unless I exercise that virtue anything I do will be for naught.

I need to change and make a plan or else I will just have to be miserable like this from now on. I know I need to stop whining and start to exercise and eat healthy foods. I have to work on it soon or it will be too hard if I keep on packing a few pounds every time I eat because I do eat like a pig. Shame! shame! Why can't I lose the extra pounds just by thinking about it? It sure would have been easier. Hays!